In 2011, things began to change for me in a big way! I had known for a long time that many of the TV preachers were preaching a gospel that was contrary to the gospel I saw in the Bible. I was quite concerned that I may be a heretic! It was scary and sad to see that many things I had been taught were simply not true. I was doing a lot of fasting and praying at the time. One day, I had a dream like no other dream I have ever had before...or since. The dream happened in February and was about Israel. It had three separate scenes of violent war in it. I woke up crying and could not get it out of my mind for months. Every time I thought of it, I cried. I realized I did not know much about Israel, so I started looking at maps and wondering more about the Jewish people and the whole Middle East. I had the dream 2 days before the Egyptian riots started. I have always loved the Jewish people because I knew Yeshua was Jewish and I knew I was supposed to love and bless them, but I realized I did not know much about them.
The following month was March. One day, I was at work and during my lunch break, I decided to go out to my car and read my Bible. The Holy Spirit (Ruach HaKodesh) specifically directed me to look up Passover. I started reading a passage about it and suddenly realized that it specifically said it was to be observed forever! Am I supposed to be doing this, I wondered? I began to see that I was supposed to be doing this and it was coming up at the end of the month. The next day or so, I was home from work and I knew that if I did not call a rabbi and talk to him about this, I was going to burst!
I got out my phone book and looked under synagogues. I found one that said "Messianic" and I thought, hmmm...I think they might believe that Jesus is the Messiah like I do! I never knew there was such a thing as this. I called and a nice man answered. I nervously asked him if it was ok for a Christian to celebrate Passover and he quietly said "yes". He explained that his congregation was having a Seder meal that year and I was welcome to attend for the cost of the meal. He gave me a woman's phone number to make the arrangements with. After talking with her, I just knew I had found a new sister in the Lord and decided that I must attend this Messianic Congregation that very Saturday! I could not wait for Passover!
You see, a church I used to attend started observing "Sabbath" and then, my mother had married a Seventh Day Adventist. I was struggling with the whole "Sabbath" issue. One part of me would think, "but we are not under the law" yet the other part would think, "but when did this "law" change?". I finally knew that the Sabbath was for me and I began to see what I was missing!
Well, the people at this Congregation must have thought I was crazy when I walked right up to the front and sat in the second row! I was so eager to know more about the Lord and what He was showing me. If I could have sat right at that teacher's feet, I would have, because I knew in my heart that I was going on a great, new adventure with my precious Abba Father. He has not let me down!
That was the beginning of my journey walking this narrow, ancient path, following my Friend and Messiah, who I now know as Yeshua!
Psalms 18:2-3 (Complete Jewish Bible)
(1) "I love you, ADONAI, my strength!
(2) "ADONAI is my Rock, my fortress and deliverer,
my God, my Rock, in whom I find shelter,
my shield, the power that saves me,
my stronghold.